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Winternights are time time when you have friends over and celebrate staying indoors or even just hang out and rug up on the couch and stay warm while its cold and dark.

Yesterday Ellen came to the gym with us yesterday and signed up. It was so great having another girl to hang out with! So nice. Anyway so turns out Darren has done something to his ankle thats pretty nasty at football and hes been on crutches! We weren't doing anything so I said to ryan we should invite him over for dinner. So he came and I made dinner and also Afghan Biscuits! Just like in NZ!!! So here is the recipe: 

 Afghan biscuits recipe

250g nuttelex, chopped, at room temperature
¾ cup castor sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 tablespoon of freshly brewed coffee
1 cup self-raising flour
1 cup plain flour
1/3 cup cocoa
2 cups lightly crushed cornflakes
¼ cup desiccated coconut
Chocolate icing
1 cup icing sugar
2 tablespoons cocoa
2 tablespoons butter, at room temperature
1 tablespoons boiling water
Whole walnuts to decorate


  1. Preheat oven to moderate, 180°C. Lightly grease and line 2 baking trays.
  2. In a large bowl, using an electric mixer, beat butter and sugar together until pale and creamy. Beat in vanilla and coffee.
  3. Sift flours and cocoa together. Fold into creamed mixture. Stir through cornflakes and coconut.
  4. Roll level tablespoons of mixture into balls. Arrange on prepared trays, leaving 4cm space between each biscuit (this allows for spreading). Flatten lightly with a fork. Bake for 15-20 minutes. Cool on trays.
  5. Chocolate icing: sift icing sugar and cocoa together into a small bowl. Stir in butter and water until icing is smooth and spreadable.
  6. Spread icing over cooled biscuits. Sprinkle with walnuts.
  7. Share with loved ones

Farewell Autumn. Hellooo Winter.

Ok it's getting serious now. Colder outside to the point that a cardigan and scarf just wont cut it. Warm enough inside to be enjoying warm sweet chestnuts fresh from the oven with the bunnies.
Its cold enough to need to drag out the Ugg boots WITH socks, and bring the duvet out into the lounge to watch movies and tv.

I can smell dinner calling me, wanting me to finish cooking.
Roasted pumpkin chips with rosemary. and organic chicken, mushrooms, celery and white wine. Of which I will put a dollop of sour cream on top when its done. MMM. Time to go check my pumpkin chips.

Sweet Autumn

So next weekend is Easter, a time for warm Hot Cross Buns and getting out all of the scarves and hats for the coming months. Found an amazing Grimace Purple cardigan with puffy shoulders, a beautiful leather pleat belt and a pair of my favourite gold ballet T-bars at my dads house in a box of junk which I'm super happy about. Autumn is a great time to squirrel possessions away. 
Had a lovely relaxing weekend at Ryans holiday house with Tyson and Bridget and had fun spa times and tasty foods. 
Next weekend is the girly weekend away, and for a little easter present for myself I bought this

Loving lancome right now, thanks to Michelle Phan
So looking forward to receiving it in the mail, along with my 1986 vintage Cats t-shirt which should arrive soon. Exciting times


 What can I possibly do to sooth my nerves? I'm like Ashley Olsen in New York Minute, Imagining that I will be driving naked! 
I think i might even also throw in a panic attack too.

Im so nervous! I just want to have my licence and have it now! I have AEIFD --- Associative Examination Irrational Fear Disorder!!!!! 

I had two practice tests last night where my driver took me through everything that happens, and I passed both just fine. He says that once I get behind the wheel for my real test everything will just 'fall into place' but i feel more like falling to pieces to be honest. 

Anyway. Ive been staring in the mirror practicing my smile for my licence photo, even though IM GOING TO FAIL! 

Im also too scared to tell anyone Im going for my licence because 
a) the people I have told have provided me with endless horror stories 
b) I don't want people to know I don't already have it!!!! 

Im wearing my lucky/favourite country road dress, its super comfortable. 

See you in a few hours @_@ 

YH @ Royal Derby

My Personal Day

Today (Monday) is a personal day for mee.
I woke up this morning and my body protested against me going to bed, it literally dragged me back into bed and was out of control. Also that curly haired guy from neighbours was on the phone to me in my sleep and I 'had to think of his name' or else I couldnt get up. But I promptly fell back asleep right after texting Karen at work saying that I have been violently Ill.

I cant help it if i get dreadful mondayitis!

So here is my plan for the rest of my personal day:

  1. Cook Ryan a decent meal (for once) so he can come home to a nice dinner

  2. Finally get some new ringtones for my phone

  3. My sister is coming over to drop off my new keyboard and have tea

  4. Wash some clothes for work

  5. Vacuum the house

  6. Watch Neighbours with Ryan

  7. Build our new bed

  8. Take photo of said bed

  9. Put photos on facebook along with all the other photos of the last few weeks!

Ah, personal day, you are awesome for menial tasks.

My Sister

She makes me feel like... Hot toast with nuttelex and Annothoths Jam.
For some reason right now I feel so sad. I can't decide what aspect of my life is not in balance. I never know. It could just be that I'm hungover because I drank wine last night that was apparently cheap, and it was sitting open in my fridge for a good few weeks. Or it could be that its dark and grey outside. I don't know. But something isn't right, and I'm determined to find out what, because I don't like being sad. It's not good.


OK sorry to complain

 Poor. $2.60.
34 degrees. 
Big Fussed up thesis to fix.
Full time job
Senior consultant first thing in the morning, with no clue what Im doing.
Back to back appointments all week. 
33+ degrees all week. NO aircon.
No paycheck for 2 weeks. 
Hungry for crap ass foods. 




In the last few weeks something has compelled me to think more about death. In thinking about death we come to illuminations about life. At the end of the day my beliefs are as follows (At this point) 

 - I am agnostic. I don't know what I beleive in but I do believe that humans have alot less control than they think. I also do not beleive in a god as such but beleive nature and external forces (be it science, evolution, fate, destiny, etc) hold more control than any god could. 
- I also subsequently believe that the most useless way to spend a life is to spend it trying to decide what you beleive in or encouraging one belief system or another. Life is short, and being human is beautiful, and we dont get a second chance. Worrying about what happens when you die is the worst way to be alive. 
- For a long time I have feared the death of my loved ones. If Ryan were to die, as much as it would decimate every inch of me, I know I am equipped with the strength of memories and love to power on, I know the day after ryan dies I will have the power to get out of bed and make breakfast. It is just who I am. However I cannot picture ryan being able to do the same if I were to die. I don't care how much pain I would have to go through, seeing ryan in pain hurts me more. I feel as though after life we are able to look down on the ones we love (which says alot about spirit contact). 
- However. Recently I have come to realise why I yearn for a child. If I were to die, I would be happy just knowing that there is another human in the world that is 50% of who I am. Although I am 50% the product of each of my parents, no one exists in this world who has any part of me with them, and a child would be that legacy. I would be comforted if I died to know that a part of me lives on, a part of me that I would have nurtured from the moment of conception. 
- On this note however, I also beleive that giving birth is not our only calling in life. It is natures design that some people are not given the tools needed to conceive naturally. If I were to be one of these people, although I would yearn for a child of my own, and the pain would be unknowable, I also acknowledge that a child is not the only thing that two humans can give birth to. There would be bigger ideas or plans or goals for me if it were not my destiny to be a mother. I would mother other things. Provide support to those whose mother cannot. I would not try to force something that does not occur naturally. Everything happens for a reason and this would still be the case. 

Im sure these ideas will change though.  :)